Book review: The girl behind the wall / Mandy Robotham

The girl behind the wall / Mandy Robotham

This story starts on August 13, 1961. And if your history isn’t sharp on what happened that day, the first page gives it away: Berlin wakes up to a wall rising on its border.
The border had been there drawn in chalk, but suddenly there was a construction going up.
The only people still allowed to cross the border, were military personnel, and foreign press:
everybody else is stuck where they are. This is problematic for Karin, a young woman from West Berlin, who was taken to hospital in East Berlin the night before. She wakes up with her appendix out, and a border up. Her twin sister Jutta, is on the other side, at home with the family. Their cousin Hugo is a radio reporter and he takes Jutta along with him to cover the development of the newly rising border blockade, while trying to find a passage still open. There is none. The best they can do, is find a member of the foreign press and ask them to bring a note to the hospital.
In the days and weeks that follow, the Wall only goes up higher, and the strips of no-mans-land are becoming more fortified. It quickly becomes clear that Karin is trapped behind the Wall. It becomes Jutta’s mission to get her out.

The story goes back and forth between East and West Berlin, Karin and Jutta.
The chapters are short, which keeps the pace going. It also does a great job in describing daily life in the city at the time, and the differences between the two parts.
When Jutta accidentally stumbles onto a hole in the Wall, she goes through it, and locates her sister. She figures that Karin will be eager to come home with her, but Karin is settled into life in East Berlin by then: it’s been almost two years and she’s got her own apartment, a job, friends, and a man she loves. A man she loves so much, that it’s impossible for her to run and go home. Jutta tries to convince her that life in the West will be better, but Karin needs time. So, the sisters settle into a routine with Jutta regularly traveling through the Wall, to meet her sister for an afternoon. The fact that they made it undetected once, even twice, is a miracle. To think that they will remain invisible and keep this up, is a naïve gamble.

The start of the story has a lot of action: the Wall goes up, the scene is set. But then it stagnates. While that helps to describe how life assumes a new normal even in such a situation, this part of the story felt disproportionately long compared to the beginning and end. Because it isn’t until page 340 that pressure starts to build, and for a book that has 393 pages (including an epilogue) that was a bit late.
The two sisters are equal on paper, but Jutta was front runner for main character for me. She’s the one that goes through the Wall, she’s the one that realizes there is a sense of urgency. Karin felt too meek, too passive, and while her indecisiveness was understanding, it also got annoying, probably because it took too long, and it didn’t seem like she understood that she couldn’t take forever to make up her mind. Not making a decision, is a decision itself, and it got to a point where I thought Jutta should just leave her be, and move on. I don’t think that’s what I was meant to feel.
In the end, reality catches up with the sisters, and in a very bad way. But just as things are speeding up again, the story suddenly ends with a cliff-hanger.
The reveal happens in the epilogue which takes place on 11 November 1989 with the fall of the Wall. Having started the story with the rise of the Wall, that is a nice way to bookend things. But it felt hasty, as if space had run out, and this was the only way to wrap things up. The ending also felt a bit too neat.

Overall conclusion: this is an okay read, but for me it was on the verge of “meh”. It’s solid because of the obvious research that was done to provide a good setting, but a story is more than its setting, as it needs good characters as well. The characters in this book could have used a bit more oomph.

Reading challenge 2024 – No. 2

No. 2: A memoir
Strong female character / Fern Brady

As a teenager Fern read about autism and it made her realize that she had a lot in common with the description. When she told her doctor, he laughed it off, told her she “just” had OCD and depression instead, and prescribed her medication.
Twenty years, several misdiagnoses and a lot of unnecessary suffering later, she gets diagnosed with autism after all. I felt angry and frustrated on the author’s behalf.

Autism expresses differently in girls and women than it does in boys and men.
One of the incidents described in the book, is when the author expresses her suspicions about being autistic to the psychiatrist she’s seeing, he wrongfully concludes she’s not autistic because she’s making eye-contact and has always had boyfriends, rationalizing that an autistic person would be incapable of that. Fern knows he’s wrong, just as she knows the others were wrong, but because she’s not able to express herself and shuts down when a conversation goes different from what she’s prepared for, she keeps stuck in the loop of misdiagnoses. The inability to communicate what is happening or how she experiences a situation, left me feeling almost claustrophobic at times. Being forced to sit through the wrong diagnosis, spending time at a psychiatric hospital, or finding yourself in a stressful situation only because you didn’t know how to say no, or otherwise express your feelings about it, is nightmare inducing.

I learned about meltdowns and shut downs (not the same), and masking. I also recognized certain traits and for a second thought, maybe I’m a little bit of that as well. But then learned that we’re in fact “not all a little bit on the spectrum”, and that either you are, or you are not. And this is not just the author’s opinion. She’s done her research and there are footnotes with sources listed.
These footnotes, by the way, are the only thing I had a problem with. And not the notes themselves of course, but the layout: the symbols used to indicate the footnotes are light and tiny. Especially when the symbol follows a quotation mark, it’s easy to miss. Then I’d spot the footnote at the bottom of the page, and I’d wonder what it relates to, and had to scan the page back to find spot. It might sound petty, but as I said: the author has done her research and there are footnotes throughout the book, and missing the indications, kept pulling me out of the story. Thankfully the book is so well written, that I kept with it and picked up easily again.
This book is insightful, and I learned a lot. It’s also funny, and dark, and very real. I laughed, and I cried.

Something different than usual: instead of a cover shot, one of the back of the book. It was the summary on the back cover that pulled me into this book and I wanted to share that as well because it is a far better summation than I can ever provide you with:

Strong female character / Fern Brady

Still here

I’m still here! My tablet broke down and I didn’t have the patience to create entries on my phone.
On the plus side: without a tablet there was no room for distraction and all the more time for reading. Expect some catching up soon!

Reading challenge 2024: No. 1

No. 1: A book based on a historic event
The Night Ship / Jess Kidd

I went from Dublin to Dublin in my reading, and now from magical to (slightly) magical. It’s all connected and we’ll see where it’ll end up. For this book, it’s Beacon Island.

There are two stories here: Mayken’s, which starts in 1628 when she boards the Batavia ship. And Gil’s, which starts in 1989, when he arrives on Beacon Island, a tiny island (you can cross it in twenty minutes on foot) off the west coast of Australia.
Mayken and Gil both lost their mothers due to unconventional / problematic lifestyles.
Mayken and Gil live three hundred years apart, but their stories are mirrored: both live in/on confined spaces, are free spirits, cross dress, run into stories about monsters living in the water, and neither wants to be where they are.

Although it’s probably best known in Australia and the NL, the story of the Batavia has been told in documentaries and books, so I don’t consider it a spoiler when I say that its 1628 maiden voyage didn’t go entirely according to plan. Loaded with riches, and people, the ship was part of a fleet of East India Company ships travelling to what was then Batavia, and is now Indonesia. The sailors were literally sitting on top of chests full of silver coins, and with a skipper and upper-merchant that didn’t get along, tensions started rising all over the ship.
The Batavia’s story is in the book, but told from Mayken’s perspective, which is that of a nine-year old girl. She notices the unrest, the tension, but doesn’t know what it means. Her focus is more on catching the monster said to be living in the hull of the ship.
Gil is also living with tension and unrest caused by frayed relationships between the different families on the island. He also discovers he is causing tension and unrest, just by being different. Both stories build up to explosions of violence.

This book is a historical with gothic elements and hints of otherworldlyness. The build-up is nicely paced: it starts by calmly setting the scenes, the children exploring their new surroundings and getting settled in. Then, as story grows more urgent, the pace picks up, faster, faster.
The story goes from hopeful new starts, to awful realities. The story of the Batavia is clearly well researched, making Mayken’s story a treat. I liked Gil’s story as much though, and was intrigued about the boy who, appropriately, and not coincidentally, gets nicknamed Gilgamesh.
The story being told from the perspectives of children, gives it a slightly eerie sense, and I liked that most about it.

This book comes with plenty of blurbs: four on the front cover, and five on the back. More yet, on the inside. That can be annoying, but in this case, I have to agree with all of them: this book sweeps you off your feet.

The Night Ship / Jess Kidd

Book review: The Lost Bookshop / Evie Woods

I ended the year with a book that I’d bought in Dublin and I kicked off the year with a book that takes place in Dublin. It was by total accident, or maybe subconsciously I knew, but who has time to figure these things out? Onto the book!

The Lost Bookshop / Evie Woods

The Lost Bookshop is a magical story about three different people: Opaline, Martha, and Henry. The magical part is quite literal so if you’re a bit more skeptical, then maybe this book isn’t for you. I do love a bit of magic every now and then, and thought this book did it very well with just enough of it.

In nineteen-twenty-one, Opaline is being told that she needs to marry. She doesn’t like the idea one bit, and defies her mother and bully of a brother by selling a few rare books from the family library to fund her escape to Paris. She soon realizes she needs a job, and stumbles into one at the Shakespeare and Company bookshop. Here she meets James Joyce, in the process of writing Ulysses, and Ernest Hemmingway, in the process of flirting. She also meets Armand again, a man she’d met on the ferry, who had prevented her suitcase being stolen.

In the now, there’s Martha, escaping an abusive relationship, and the Irish countryside, and starting over in Dublin. She finds a job as a housekeeper for an elderly lady, and the best thing about the job is that it comes with a small basement apartment. On the first morning there, she wakes up to the sound and view of pacing feet in front of her window. When she goes to yell out of the window, she discovers that the feet belong to Henry, an English scholar, looking to find a bookshop at number eleven. Except the only houses there are numbers ten and twelve. Just as the title puts it: the bookshop’s lost.

Martha has the ability to read a person, so she knows Henry is in love with another woman. She also experiences sentences popping up in her head without context, hears sounds in the basement apartment, and discovers tree branches growing into shelves on the wall, complete with books that pop up. She accepts these things as they come along, trusting her instincts and the good vibes of the place.
Henry has the focus on his research shifted when the funding of his project gets cancelled, and he travels home to England to rearrange things. Once there, he finds out that his father has been in rehab, and is really trying his best to stay sober this time. Having had an alcoholic father growing up, has however, left a dent in Henry. He’s not able to trust his father’s recovery, and is used to keeping his guard up.
Even though they don’t seem to have much, if anything, in common, Martha and Henry quickly connect and become friends. They bring out the best in each other, with Henry introducing Martha to learning and reading, and Martha teaching Henry to approach his research and problem solving, from new and different angles.
Slowly but surely, the two of them unravel the story of Opaline, and the different storylines start to come together.
Opaline, Martha, and Henry all experienced trauma and refuse to let it define them: they have painful pasts but know they can only move forward, and do so. They are able to re-open their hearts again, and love, and grow.

Aside from the magic-magic, the story contains plenty of book-magic. The characters appreciate books, and what they can bring a reader. It’s about the hidden stories inside a bookshop, the hunt for rare books, and a missing manuscript.
This book and I were a match made in book heaven, and I enjoyed every page of it.

Coincidence or magical interference? Last week I spotted an article in The Guardian about the Book of Kells and its new experience. Then a few hours after reading that article and texting friends about it, I was on the train, continuing my reading of The Lost Bookshop, and my mouth fell open when a scene happened where Henry takes Martha to Trinity College to see the Book of Kells. The way she describes seeing it for the first time, the experience of being in the library’s Long Room, made me smile because I could so relate to that. And I couldn’t believe the happenstance of reading about it, after reading and texting about it earlier in the day. “No way!” was my out-loud reaction to it (startling the woman sitting next to me).
The universe works in mysterious ways I’m not smart enough to understand, but I do believe it is telling me I need to go to Dublin.

Reading Challenge 2024

Oh yes, this is happening again!
New year, new reading opportunities. And I’m starting months earlier this year, so I have high hopes for a fully checked list by the time we reach end of December.
So, with the appropriate fanfare and glee, I hereby present: Reading challenge 2024!

  1. A book based on a historic event
  2. A memoir
  3. A book set in the 70s
  4. A graphic novel
  5. A book I started but never finished
  6. A book set in the future
  7. A nonfiction book
  8. A book with bad reviews
  9. A book set in my country
  10. A book published this year
  11. A book with a number in the title
  12. A book written by an author with the same initials as me
  13. A book set during a holiday
  14. A book that is set in the decade I was born
  15. A book I own but never read
  16. A book with a green cover
  17. A book with an antonym in the title
  18. A book everyone is talking about
  19. The title starts with M
  20. A book with a body part in the title
  21. A book with a verb in the title
  22. A trilogy

Anyone else doing a reading challenge?

Happy 2024!

Or: Looking forward to a new year or reading

There will be love and heartbreak.
There will be war and peace.
There will be tears and laughter.
There will be moments of quiet reflection and wild jubilation.
There will be I-can’t-believe-that-happened moments, and obstacles to overcome.
Opportunities, conquests, and robots.

The books will have all this as well, and then some.

Wishing you and yours a happy and healthy New Year, filled with wonderful stories.

‘Tis the season

Or: 2023 – Looking back on a year of reading

The days are dark and dreadful, literally and figuratively, and I’ve happily drawn the curtains to block it all out. Here, in my personal bubble of books, booze, music, and absolutely no news, I’m looking back on the year in reading that is now almost entirely behind me. This is, after all, the time of year where we look back and reflect. So, let the evaluation commence!

The Reading Challenge

  • 17 of 25 boxes ended up being checked, which is a result even I didn’t see coming, as I only started the challenge in May. My willingness to drop everything in order to read, has finally paid off!
  • The worst book I read for this list was definitely no. 13 – a banned book which had me in a spin for a bit. And then I didn’t finish it. It’s also with great pleasure that I can announce that this is hands down the worst book I ever attempted to read.
  • The biggest disappointment in a book was no. 5 – a book with a person’s name in the title. I was so enticed by the teasers and the cover page, and then I just didn’t get it. It happens.
  • The biggest stand-out ends up a triple tie between numbers 14 – a western, 20 – a book that prominently features an animal, and 6 – a book that was turned into a movie. The western was just a thrill-ride that sucked me in from the very first page, and the animal I read about, was a delightful octopus named Marcellus. Then there was scientist Elizabeth Zott, who figured if cooking on tv was the way to get her science across, then that was what she would do. Three very different books, but the common denominator was a kick-ass main character with an amazing voice.
  • The biggest surprise about a book was no. 10 – a retelling of a classic just because I was fearing a dry and complicated mythical read, and then it turned out to be a delightful, almost Dickensian, tale of love conquering greed and envy.
  • Books I learned the most from, are numbers 8 – a book with a one-word title, and 4 – a book with a city in the title. My entry-level knowledge of John Wilkes Booth was what I had learned through tv-show Timeless, but now I know enough to take a quiz on the guy. 1950’s Iran was something I knew equally little about, but reading a story set in that time and place, had me doing a deep-dive into the history books (and recipe books, because the way the cooking and the food was described, had my stomach growl).
  • The book I laughed the most about, was easily no. 22 – a book with more than 500 pages. Fucking stuff up is part of life, no matter what age you are, and I really enjoyed the way it was described that Nell came to that realization.

Other reads:
Yes, I probably would have finished the reading challenge if I only had stuck to reading items that fitted the list. But, sometimes books that don’t fit a category, still had to be read: they were either borrowed from friends, I was the next reader on the library waiting list, or they just called out to me from their spot on the to-be-read pile. Then I also re-read some of my all-time favourites, just to get me going again when I got stuck in a reading rut or needed something to get me away from a book.
How to kill men and get away with it , Everyone in my family killed someone, and Factory girls were the stand-out reads in this category. I’m sure it’s entirely coincidental that these three books all have bright orange covers.

In numbers

  • 31 – total number of books read that fell outside of the reading challenge category and/or were read before the reading challenge was started.
  • 17 – total number of books read for the reading challenge
  • 7 – books started but not finished because they were the wrong book at the wrong time
  • 27 – books I borrowed from the library
  • 5 – books I borrowed from friends
  • 23 – books I bought

Overall conclusion
I borrowed books, bought books, and donated books.
I’ve talked about books, written about books, and took so many pictures of books-i-want-to-read that my phone’s memory is close to reaching full capacity.
I got to know amazing characters, and discovered new places.
2023 was one heck of a book year.

Book review : Factory Girls / Michelle Gallen

Factory Girls / Michelle Gallen

My tbr pile is so big, that I lost a book in there.
(Confession or brag: it’s a thin line. I guess it depends on who you ask. Just don’t ask my mom: she’ll only roll her eyes.)
What happened, was that I started to read this book last year, and when for some reason I had to put it down, I accidentally put it on the wrong stack and it ended up on the tbr pile, instead of the “I’m currently reading these”-pile. When I was looking for a book to read for my reading challenge, I stumbled on this book instead, was so happy to have found it again, that I forgot about the reading challenge for a hot minute, and dove into this instead.

I bought this book in Dublin last year as a souvenir, and it’s very Irish.
Factory Girls is set in Northern Ireland, 1994. It’s about Maeve Murray, who has two best friends, Aoife, and Caroline. They live in “a shitty wee border town” near Derry, and the girls have just finished school. They have all summer to wait for their exam results, and use the thirteen weeks to work at the local clothing factory, to save up money for university. Maeve dreams about studying journalism in London, where nobody will know her, and nobody will care about the fact that she’s Catholic and has a sister who died.
Because they can’t wait to leave home, Maeve and Caroline rent a small apartment above a shop, across from the factory. The factory workforce consists of Catholics and Protestants alike, and even inside the small factory community, there is a strong divide that has tensions rising at times. The peace talks that are happening, are only cause for more tension. Maeve is relieved to finally find one thing they have in common: both Catholics and Protestants sing the happy birthday song exactly the same.
Their boss is Andy, who is called Handy Andy by the workers. He’s a creep who unhooks the women’s bras as he walks his rounds on the factory floor, and regularly calls women into his office alone. Maeve becomes one of his victims, but when she finds out she’s comped an extra ten pounds in her weekly pay for it, she only cares that in thirteen weeks, that would add up to an extra hundred-and-thirty pounds.
It is Andy who gives her the book How to Make Friends and Influence People which she applies in the funniest and darkest ways.
Maeve is aware that survival in their corner of the world, depends on being able to stay out of the spotlight, to keep your head down, and not make any outspoken friends or enemies. Yet just as she is about to make a clean get-away, she breaks her own rules and gets herself into trouble.

The book is written in accent, and I don’t know about you, but I generally find reading accents difficult, it slows me down, and words or expressions can leave me stumped, or require reading out loud. But when accent writing is done right, it adds an extra layer to the characters and the setting. I thought this book was an excellent example; the accents are used to mark the difference between the standings in society, and I could just hear these girls talk. And Maeve talks the best talk. She’s rough around the edges, a sharp observer, and aware that her working-class, Catholic background, is not working in her favour. Maeve is also aware that her normalcy about living with terror all the time, is actually not normal. Not only has she witnessed, and experienced, the violence of the Troubles, but plenty of “normal” violence and sexual abuse too. As she says: life is tough on men, but it’s always tougher on women.
Despite its serious setting and the roughness, there are plenty of (dark) laughs to find in this book as well.
This book gives off Derry Girls vibes (if you haven’t seen it: this is a gem of a show that streams on Netflix in the NL, not sure about other areas) but it’s way more real than that and has a darker sense of humour.
I liked this book a whole lot and it is a perfect example of why books make excellent souvenirs.